Like most woman, I have always struggled with my body and how I wish I was like a size 8! lol....when I hear people complaining about being a size 6 I tell them I think I skipped that size growing up!! AHAHAHA. Seriously. In high school I was around 150lbs. At the time I thought I was absolutely HUGE! So much so I actually joined weight watchers! *UGH* It helped for a bit but then I got sick with Mono, missed several classes and couldn't pay the $$ for the weeks I didn't attend. When I look back at pictures of me in high school I think, MAN! I what I wouldn't GIVE to look like that now! I am not sure where my insecurity came from at such a young age. I use to think I was pretty confident for a 15 yr old. I do know that I was SURROUNDED at my high school with girls that were pencil thin....everywhere. I just knew that I wasn't.
Fast forward 18 1/2 years and two kids later....OH.MY.GOSH! What have I done to myself??? Now, mind you, I am not obese, but I am 'overweight'. With a BMI of 26~ just 2 points away from a 'healthy' BMI of 24. I am uncomfortable with who I am, both inside and out.
I understand that I am an emotional eater....if I'm happy I eat, if I'm sad I eat...and not healthy options. I decided that I was going to join a Bible study at my church. The book we are studying is Thin Within. I'm excited! It's Godly approach to losing weight. And it's not necessarily about LOSING weight. It's more about strengthening your relationship with the Lord and through doing so asking Him to help you get through your everyday life and challenges. When I eat...am I REALLY hungry...or do I just WANT something. Does my body NEED this? It's just the first week of the study so I'm not all that sure about all the tiny details! I just know I am where I am suppose to be. Surrounded by woman of the same mind that will help me and encourage me....and I them. Support is vital! We were actually suppose to meet for the 2nd today but here in Dallas, TX we are ICED in and school is out for a third day! So it was cancelled. BOO!
Anyways....I decided to blog about my experience through this. Maybe somewhere along the way I can help or encourage someone else. My prayer is that the Lord changes me through this inside and out...and that my lifestyle changes. Not a temporary life change, but permanent. I can do all things through Christ, who strengthens me (Philippeans 4:13)....I'm claiming it and I'm believing it!
No comments:
Post a Comment